Following on from the last journal, we did indeed move out and into my granddad's house last July. Myself, my cat, my mum and her boyfriend stayed there for a couple of months, then they moved to the new house while I continued staying with my granddad. Mentally I wasn't quite ready for it. Besides, the new house was a complete wreck so it would've been too dangerous for Raja to be around while work was being done. (Getting the house up to basic condition took many, many, many months. A lot of things are still ongoing.)
Christmas was alright but very awkward. I was still living at my granddad's at the time so it was the first time I've ever been living away from home during Christmas, although we did go over there for the majority of Christmas Eve/Day/Boxing Day. Mainly, it was awkward was because on Christmas Eve night, my granddad and my mum's boyfriend had their first huge falling out in the 12 years he's been around. I won't go into details on here obviously, but it's kinda torn the family in two a bit. My granddad still, even now, won't set foot in the house if he's here...
Anyway, on December 30th, the day before my birthday, Raja and I finally moved into the new house. It was very, very strange but also very good because things hadn't exactly been problem-free when I was living with my granddad. Moving to the new place was also very scary because of the over-a-decade-long huge problems between myself and my mum's boyfriend. (He kinda ruined my life a bit in some ways to be honest...) I vowed to myself to not let him have that effect over me anymore though when I moved into the new place. That's been going ok so far, I think.
Morgan-wise, I think things have been going quite well with improving myself. The therapy group that I was in for a year and a half for my agoraphobia, social anxiety and other things was going well, then the place that runs it decided to shake things up a little and over-double the size of the group with new people. I had a very bad time dealing with the changes for a couple of months but I got used to the new people eventually and now I'm okay. (Apart from a certain person who drives everyone insane ¬_¬).
Things recently have started to feel a little like treading water however and the way that the 3 staff have been acting as of late hasn't exactly been to everyone's approval. I had a bit of a total breakdown a couple of weeks ago over various things and their reaction to that just made it even worse. That drove me and another person to our last straws, so afterwards we went to another therapy service and spoke with them there to see if there was anything better there that could help me.
We had a big, long chat with this other place and it seems like it might be a good fit for me so I signed up for it. It's from 9am-3pm so it's a lot longer than the current 11am-1pm group that I'm in, and instead of spending all that time just talking, in the new group you don't talk about that kinda stuff and instead you work on various things (woodwork, gardening, cooking, etc). I had a meeting there last week to be explained things and shown around, but my first proper time of going there will be tomorrow. I'm absolutely terrified beyond belief but at the same time there's a part of me that feels good about it. Like it's moving forwards. It's just a little difficult at the moment to stop thinking about it, panicking and thinking "Oh god, what have I done?" It's also probably the biggest thing that I've ever done... (I'm going to be doing both groups at the same time, btw.)
Since my first visit there is tomorrow, needless to say I'm not exactly feeling the best as I type this XD I have absolutely no idea on how I'll react to it at all, which is pretty scary.
Other things? I'm still with ~rogueraven of course, and we had our five year anniversary back in February. Who'd have thought she could cope with me for that long?
What else? ...Last September I was made a Moderator on Rangerboard.com which was a pretty big deal for me. I've been a member there for 10 years and a part of me has wanted the job for quite a while. It's been going pretty good so far. I like giving back to the one community that I've been a part of for so long and I like trying to improve and protect it too. Of course, sometimes you get personal hassle from people and sometimes the mod-work can get busy and it wears you down after a while, but you get over it.
Last week I did decide to go on a hiatus though. With all of the therapy stuff being all crazy, myself being all crazy, some other stuff being all crazy, combined with all of the mod-work and some trouble with a couple of people, I decided that it would be best to take a break for maybe a month or two until things have settled down a bit. Otherwise I could see myself going into self-destruct mode. Something I would rather avoid >_>
Anyway, so that's us all caught up XD I'll try not to let it go another year for an update and I'll try to actually do some art more often.












